Love Hurts, Love Waits

Friday, February 10, 2023

A growing restlessness pesters me these past few days, if I may say, since February, the love month on planet Earth. The atmosphere around me screams love month. During our In-Service Training at school, one of the speakers never missed integrating the idea of his singleness in some parts of his talk, which hit a mark on my part. I am reminded of my own singleness, until now I have never been in a relationship with an earthling, which now is not an issue in my life. I have learned to understand the joy in singleness. I have learned to accept the possibility of growing old alone. This may sound miserable to others and they are never wrong. I respect their opinion because once or many times in my life I thought I would be miserable growing old, alone, with no one to share.

It must have been nice to experience going on a date, receiving fresh flowers, watching movies, walking in a park, feeling the warmth of a hug, having that deep connection with another earthling, and a whole bunch of things to do together on an ordinary or extraordinary day. But I know, we know, that relationships are not a bed of roses. Instead, a relationship is a roller coaster ride full of ups and downs, a maze that leads to confusion and being lost. It has good and bad sides. There is pain and joy.

Love hurts. Sometimes it hurts so bad I do not even want to think about it. I am turning two threes this year and yet the existence of unrequited love still permeates my vocabulary. How easy it would be if the earthling I like likes me back and actually pursue me. Voila! Happiness overload, in my dreams. Not in a million years it will happen. It did not happen and it will never. Not in this lifetime. Am I being hopeless by saying that? Yes, or maybe no. Time like this love stings a little bit, knowing that I am someone who is never pursued. Recently, there were times I was asked when I would have a boyfriend or get married, jokingly I got back at them by saying in the next lifetime.

The future is still a mystery and I am glad to enjoy the gift of the present. I may be longing sometimes for a companion, an Adam in my life, but the longing shall soon pass every time. It goes by. The hurt goes by. God never let it stay. He listens to my afflictions, to my cries. He knows my needs. His timing is perfect. Most of all, He gives the best for me. It may take a lifetime or someone may never come along the way, and I am sure it may be hard to understand His plans with my feeble human mind, but He is the only one to trust. It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man (Psalm 118:8). If He wills him, he is on the way. Love waits, when the time is right, the Lord will make it happen (Isaiah 60:22).

Love hurts. Love waits. Every 'no' is God's redirection towards His best for me.

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Love Scars, Love Heals

Wednesday, February 1, 2023

January has ended yesterday and February has started today which signals the beginning of love month on the face of the planet earth. How about in some other part of universe? Do they also celebrate love month just like earthlings do? I wonder. I really do.

I hope we are happy with the festivity as others celebrate it with their partner, husband or wife, boyfriend or girlfriend, while you and I bury ourselves in singleness. Or you better join an going book giveaway on my blog this love month which is one of the best things you can do in your singularity. I am giving away copies of my book The Guy with a Tatt on His Leg. You may join the contest by earning raffle entries on the installed Rafflecopter giveaway below. Join now to get a chance of winning free copies of my book and have a glimpse of Lius and Cristina's love story.

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I wrote the story last 2017 as part of an online writing class. Those were the days I could write a short novel in just months. I kind of missed those days I overflowed with ideas, feelings, and uncontrolablle emotions to the point that my only outlet was writing them out. But on second thought, I love how I am right now and what I have become, I am more grounded and at peace with who I am. I am more loving and accepting towards myself, unlike before. I used to self-blame, self-pity, self here and self there, all about myself, my pain, my sorrow. All me. All by myself. I drowned with negative thoughts and the worst feeling of not being enough, of being unworthy right to the core, while pretending that I got it all together.

I wanted to replace those negativity through pursuing romantic love with the opposite sex. I so wanted to fill in the void that nearly ate me up, that emptiness that slowly but surely almost brought me to the end of my journey. I wanted someone to complete me. I tried to find my worth from others. I was desparate, not far from being miserable.

Then, someone came.

Good news!

The nightmare stopped.

He completes me.

Through Him, I am worthy.

Because of Him, I am joyful in good and bad times.

By His grace, I am grounded and at peace with the process and the direction I am heading on.

I may be scarred, but now I am healed, freed from the strongholds and shackles of the past. Love scars, but love beyond any doubt heals. All glory to God who heals broken hearts.

Happy hearts' month!

Book Giveaway: The Guy with a Tatt on His Leg

Sunday, January 29, 2023

Book giveaway!

It has been a while since I had a giveaway on my blog. I decided to be generous this year 2023. The first book to be giveaway is a book by moi entitled The Guy with a Tatt on His Leg. It is a portion of the story about Cristina and Lius. Below is a blurb of the story to give you a perspective of what to expect from the book.

Cristina always believes that love will find its way to her. But being a teacher who has never been in a romantic relationship instigates panic among her closest family and friends reminding her to get a boyfriend the soonest. Despite the pressure and annoyance, she keeps cool about it, believing that the right guy will come. What she really wants to do right now is to visit all the beautiful beaches one at a time and start an adventure.

That’s what she says so.

When she meets a shirtless hot guy with tattoos, it brings fire to her inexperienced heart. She’s not into bad boy looking type of guys but somehow his tattoos and his long, silky black hair bring second thoughts and shake the standards she sets for herself.

Tattoo artist Lius Gevarra, finally grants himself a Sabbatical leave after years of hard work in establishing his own brand of tattooing. Entrusting his shops to his friends-slash-business partners, he embarks in a journey, and Cagbalete island as his first stop is a feast for the eye as he spends peaceful time at the shore except for the woman who rants non-stop at him for such a petty reason—and what’s the best way to shut the mouth of an untamed woman?

...kiss her, kiss her until she can no longer utter a word.

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Prizes are one (1) printed copy for the PH winner and one (1) e-book copy for a winner abroad.
The ages of the participants should be eighteen (18) and above since the book contains explicit scenes.
The announcement of winners is on March 4, 2023. Please visit my blog and other social media handles on that day to know if you are one of the winners.
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New Book Alert: Undeserved Grace by Moi

Wednesday, January 25, 2023

In case you missed it.

I have a new book. For those who know me and wonder if I still do this kind of thing, the answer is yes, aside from teaching, I still write and try my best to come up with a collection or story every year. My prayer is to continue doing this for years to come since it is one of my dreams to be a writer. I am not a famous writer or one who receives royalties every month, I am not. Now, I write hoping it can help or inspire someone to keep moving forward all by His grace. My objective in writing evolved as I moved on with God in life before I wanted to write because I had a lot in my mind, heart, and soul; I must let them all out, I needed to, or else it would be the end of me. But that was before. I am beyond grateful and thankful to God for giving and blessing me with this medium to empower and encourage individuals, especially the young ones.

Here we are, another book from me all through His grace, the Undeserved Grace, my thirteenth (13th) published book. I offer it in digital format. Interested individuals may avail of a copy from this website, in the FreedomJoyFaithShop section. For only 100 Philippine pesos you will have an e-book copy of my latest work. I published it last December 2022. It is in the English language and only has 21 pages.

I still wonder did you ever feel sorry when you said you are sorry.
You appeared on and off in my space and time.
I knew there was something odd but I brushed it off.
Told myself, to be content at least he replied or sent you letters.
Settle for that because you've got nothing else.
I even forgot for a moment I have everything I need, everything I love, of course, minus you in my life.
I was blinded for a moment.
Pained and hurt for a moment.
But God shed the light once again like he always did.
He showed me the truth.
My prayers were never in vain.
He answered them faithfully.
I was kept in the darkness for a moment thinking about why I wasn't enough.
He revealed the truth and freed me from your lies.
You tried to cancel me. Were you scared? I wonder.
I still forgive you even if you don't ask for it.
And I'm still glad I met you even if the feelings were never mutual.
Wander

Undeserved Grace is about a girl who pursued a guy who ended up hating her, and how she found God's grace again in that experience as she wondered what went wrong. Written in verses and stanzas, I tried to arrange the poems coherently, all by myself. I hope this book will inspire you to keep on holding on and never give up in life. Whenever you are tired, you can always rest in His presence. There is assurance in His presence. There is clarity in His presence. Even though there are uncertainties that surround us, our God is the assurance and clarity that we all need. God is overflowing with grace. He abounds in grace for we are saved by grace alone.